Step into my world at one time...

If you want a glimpse of what I and thousands of others went through in the religious cult we grew up in, read on. I can finally say that I'm FREE from it all and I got a tattoo to show the letting go & letting God and healing from it all. It's still very real today, the burdens and chains that imprison people that lived in this cult; it's real for the children that were taught it not just in church, but conferences and activities like vacation bible school but very different in most ways too and as well in the schooling. It was real for the parents too and the ones that have gotten out of it, KUDOS to them!! It's still heart breaking for A LOT of them to know that they were deceived in this cult and that it hurt their children more then they ever realized. There's a lot of the kids that resent their parents still and God and want nothing to do with God because of it. I can say that I still love God and still try to live my life according to how I believe GOD ONLY is leading me. No man over a cult or even the church, yes, even my Pastor. I listen to what my Pastor has to say but I still go home, after church and live my life how GOD is leading me, not my Pastor, whom I still have a lot of respect for, who he is as a Christian and a person and the leadership he does carry with him with the position in his church that he has... but he's not one I will ever worship like so many of us did while in the ATI program, towards Bill Gothard and others under him. I personally always had a weird feeling about the man and even though all of our parents looked up to him and others, there was something that felt very wrong about the him... something dark, almost satanic. I remember the last time I was near him at one of the Training Centers I worked at, he was quiet & calm and was trying to get me to talk to him but I didn't like him, never did and something in me, perhaps it was God speaking to me, I'll never know, told me to stay away from him and I'm glad I did. The blog below was well said, I couldn't of said it all better! http://redemptionpictures.com/2014/02/28/bill-gothard-homeschool-cult/